And All These Years Go By So Fast...

Home sweet Norwich. It's a strange feeling sitting in my childhood home kitchen. All I can remember are all the reasons I left. Yet at the same time I can't help but want to stay. Luckily I already bought my plane ticket to go home.

I suppose she is the reason we are here. I wouldn't change it for anything. She's my world. <3

Tell me why we're talking when we dance so good?

So I haven't been on here in over a year. How insane is that?! So much has happened and changed. I left Saint Louis, moved to the Atlanta area. Two years after I said I was going to. I got married, had a baby girl. Her name is Lauren, she was born March 9th, 2011 at 5.18pm, 7lbs 3 oz, 20in long. She is amazing. Funny, and smart. And probably the best crawler of all time.

She looks super guilty here, because she stole the dog bone. But she's cute as pie so it's ok.

As for the marriage, that didn't exactly work out the way I wanted it to. My husband ended up going back to Mexico to see his sick brother, and no we are pretty sure he isn't coming back. He has been gone 7 months, so as much as it sucks, and I hate to say it, we both basically moved on. But at least we still talk.

I am working in a Mexican Restaurant (La Hacienda) in Newnan, Georgia. And it's insane. Every day is a trip. Someone's car got stolen from the parking lot Sunday. People keep getting fired left and right. I just don't understand it at all. The rules change every day for no reason, but at least for now I am on their favorites list. I do my work and I leave, and they gave me the exact schedule that I want, basically, and I am working on getting that completely kink free too. I love getting special treatment.

So, here in Georgia, I am living with my sister and her family. And it's a little rough at times. You know how family is. We fight, we're better in a few hours. But my oh my what I wouldn't give to have my own place again. I miss living alone so much it's ridiculous. Too bad we aren't neighbors. Or we had a split level or something.

Anyway, that's my life update at the moment. And now I will continue on to my fabulous and much missed fashion blogging!! Woooo hooo. <3 

Seriously Quick Update

So we can call this a procrastiantion post. Someone is blaring music 5 feet from me and I can not focus on my readings for comp. So I want to say hey and holy eff it's been MONTHS. I suck. I will DEFINITELY update this tonight, and get you updated on the insanity that has been my life the last few months. Like the new boyfriend. Starting school. Getting a new place. And an even bigger shock!

Until then. ttfn

High School Angst

So I was digging through a box of old school stuff, and I found this old poem I wrote my senior year for a poetry slam in English class. I have to share this with the world since it is so not who I am anymore.

I sit in my room Dark and Cold
With the stereo blasting and the door locked
I close my eyes and think of the world
Of the poor lonely insignificant people
Who put others down to make themselves feel better
The ones who say they’re happy
But they go home at night and cry
The ones who say they’ve seen the world
But the furthest they’ve gotten in Atlantic City
Where they go and throw their money away
On Keno and games of  High Low Poker with stacked decks
But that’s what the world is
A deck of cards stacked against you
No one can win
And everyone loses
Come one come all
To the biggest game that can never be won
But that wouldn’t be any fun
We feed on the pain and hurt of the world
We love the suffering and the hate of Society
That’s what my music tells me
“Let the bodies hit the floor”
Because this is a world where we are all born losers
Condemned to a life of hatred and terrorism
I guess we’re just lucky like that
A place like this is what kids dreams are made of
Bubblegum Sugarplums and School Shootings
It’s everywhere
The hate and ignorance of society is what keeps us in chains
We live day to day trying to survive
Asking ourselves is this the day we die
Is this the end?
Did we remember to kiss our Mommy and Daddy goodbye
Tell them we love them?
But we’re too young to die
So we deal with what is going on in the world
And we can’t make a change
We’re too young
We don’t know
We didn’t go to Nam
Or have to walk fifteen miles to school
In the snow
Barefoot
Uphill
BOTHWAYS
But no, we don’t know
We don’t see how we will ever win
We don’t thing that we will ever win
And we’re right
So underestimated and do under appreciated
We watch this everyday
And I see the shallow
The superficial
Them with their Prada bags
Their Gucci dresses
Giorgio Armani suits
Their 6 carat pink diamond
On a white gold band from Tiffany Co.
And it makes me sick
In this world where there is terror and hunger everywhere
They still treasure their 400 dollar purse
So I turn my music up louder
And close my eyes tighter
And slip from this world
To a place where I can be me

Ok, so if you know me, you know that I am the Tiffany ring Prada purse toting girl, now. It makes me smile when I think about it.

Bad haircuts and huge breasts.

I love different haircuts. I really do. I experiment with styles all the time. But the one part I hate is when it gets to the length that is absolutely useless. That's what ails me now. Stupid shoulder length hair that I hate. Too short to all go up in a pony without looking ridiculous and too long to wear down at work. So the bobby-pin is now my new best friend. This is just one of the things that is making me aggravated right now.

I am 23 years old, almost 24, and my boobs are STILL growing. We are talking two inches and a cup size in the last 5 months. And in the same time frame I have lost weight, so I really don't understand what is going on.

I am currently thoroughly engrossed in a Real Housewives of NY marathon. I love this show. I don't know why. And it sucks it's on at the same time as The Mentalist so I never get to watch it until I download it the next day. Bethenny Frankel is probably my personal hero. I love everything about her.

I am also in deep contemplation about changing my major. I think I will see how Summer and Fall semesters go and then decide. But I see good things in my future. That's the best feeling I have had in a while. The last few weeks I have just been in a really good place.

And my sister just came to visit me! It was awesome!!

And she brought my adorable nephew! I am really glad I got to spend a few days with them and see my nephew have so much fun. We did the zoo, science center, arch and turtle park. It was a blast. :]

I think I am going to go pour myself some wine and watch some more housewives while even more thoughts run through my head.

In My Mailbox

In My Mailbox is a weekly meme hosted by The Story Siren. I know, I know, I should do this on Mondays. But I just got this weeks fabulous finds all piled up and listed.

At the thrift store I found :
Les Miserables - Victor Hugo
Garden Of Shadows - VC Andrews
Good In Bed - Jennifer Weiner
White Oleander - Janet Fitch
He's Just Not That Into You - Greg Behrendt
In Her Own Sweet Time - Lehmann - Haupt
Midnight In The Garden Of Good And Evil - John Berendt


And I really have to share the fact that I found PRADA. Real, authentic, tagged Prada. 12 dollars. Be jealous.

Short Life Update..

Hey y'all. I know, I really suck at writing in this don't I? I go a week and blog like crazy then you don't hear from me for a month. Sorry about that. Things have been really insane lately.


Well, I am officially a full time college student. Awesome, I know. I start classes June 7th. I really can't wait. I am only taking online classes for the summer but come fall time I will be taking a full on campus course load. It only took me 6 years, but I am finally going to school. Woo.

Hmm. My best friend, Sherry, came to visit me in St Louis. It was amazing. We had a fabulous week!

This is us at the St Louis Zoo in front of the waterfalls. Shortly before she was chased around by a huge bird. Hilarious. We also got tattoos. And went to the top of the Arch!! Now, I know most people don't see why that would be a 2 exclamation point statement, but I am deathly afraid of heights. So getting me to the top of that 630 foot arch was not easy at all. And the tram thing that takes you up there is like a 4 foot tall cheese wheel. It was ridiculous. I was not please, I had a huge freak out. But I did it. See Busch Stadium from the top of the arch:

Woot. In other news, I found out that my ex fiance just plead guilty to second degree murder. Crazy to think just four years ago we were getting engaged, planning a wedding, planning a life together. And now I am in St Louis planning my future and he is planning 20 to life. It's insane the roads we go down.

I am slowly learning to stop and appreciate everything as it comes. I've definitely been stopping and smelling roses. And I know I always say this, but I really will try to be better about updating. I promise! :]