So we've all been there. On that awkward date. It could be good awkward or bad awkward. Well, for me it was I couldn't really tell awkward. I recently went out twice with this guy. Let's start with the fact that these were my only dates in about two years. I kind of stopped dating. After the last relationship ended, I was more of a hang out and hook up kind of girl. But I am starting to get to where I don't want to be the party girl. I want to be the at home on the couch with a book and some wine girl. And if I find a guy who wants to be in the picture, woo.
But both dates were ok. I think. I had fun. We had some drinks and talked a lot. He was a perfect gentleman. He was on time picking me up. Paid for everything. Didn't keep me out super late. But I have weird mixed feelings about the whole thing.
Physically, the guy is not my type at all. He is well over a foot taller than me. His hair is longer than mine. He's not muscular and tattooed up the way I normally like them. But I can talk to him. I can have a good time with him. And at the end of the night, I really wanted him to kiss me. So what does that mean? And does it make me shallow if I don't want to continue seeing him? Or does it make me picky?
I spent a good chunk of my dating time really only dating the same "type" of guy. And now, years later, even if I wanted to expand the pool, I don't know if I can. I take a lot of pride in my appearance. Even with the weight gain, I always look my best when I go places. My makeup is in place and my hair looks good. (Except when I go to WalMart. Because really. WalMart.) And I really don't think I can date someone who isn't on that level. Does that make me a bad person? Or does it mean I refuse to settle?
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