Operation Skinny Bitch!

So, I have never been so motivated to lose weight in my life.

I have been overweight for a while. And I stayed that way just out of complacency. When I graduated high school, five and a half years ago, I was a size 10. I washappy, healthy, and seriously in love. Over the last few years, between bad breakups and huge holiday meals, I have gained some serious poundage. I am now a size 16/18. I look in the mirror and hate myself some days.

Well, now I am faced with an amazing opportunity. There is a guy from my past who has recently resurfaced. He was my best friend from 5th grade until 9th. He moved Christmas vacation freshman year, and I spoke to him for the first time in 9 years a few nights ago. To be perfectly honest, he was more than a best friend. I was his first crush (if you could see the smile on my face right now) and I know for a fact if he hadn’t left we would have dated all through High School. I actually had intentions of asking him to be my boyfriend the day we came back after vacation.

Ok, so let’s put out there that talking about this, and writing it, makes me feel like I am 14 again. Crap, I am 23 years old. An adult. And I still get butterflies. Eff.

Well, it’s been weighing on my mind, no pun intended, that his memories of me are my 14 year old self. I was a size 8, I was on crutches, I was awkward, and I had a fabulous complexion. Basically all the opposites of who I am now. I am a bit larger, lost the crutches, started having breakouts when I turned 21, and I am definitely not awkward anymore. I am very sociable.

So, yesterday starts my new life. By my 24th birthday, July 23rd, I will back into a size 12 if it kills me, although 10 is my goal. That’s 8 months from now, and there is no reason I can’t do it if I put my mind to it. If I can lose one size every other month than I can do this. I am going to write about it everyday, because if other people are reading this, then I know I can make myself stay with it. I am going to exercise. I am going to eat so much better. I am going to make it happen.

So I found out when I move to Georgia, I will only be 6 hours away from him. After all these years, he is going to be a mornings drive away. And the best part is we are making plans to see each other on December 18th. So, my goal is to lose one dress size in a month. I have the best pair of American Eagle jeans that are just one size to small for me. And they make my bum look amazing. So here's to hoping. :) Wish me luck.